Just starting to feel the nausea so yucky, hate it. Still thinking about you all the time, how small you are right now and how big you will get. One day I know you are going to be taller then me, I will hug you and have to stand on my tip toes to get my arms around your neck. I daydream about you too, what you will smell like, how soft you will be, the sound of your breathing. Oh I can't wait till you can hear my voice, I will talk to you all the time I will even get your daddy to talk to you too.
I think about him a lot to and how important he is to me and you. He gave me you, it is one of the best gifts he will ever give me. I hope that we can be a gift to him too, I know he is scared right now and that this all does not seem real but soon enough it will be more real then even I can believe. On the 8th I am going to get to hear your heartbeat, your dad can't be there but he will be for all the rest. I want to see him excited really excited and awed that this is his child and that he helped make something that will live on past him. I love your father so much, more then I have ever loved anyone else I hope you two always love each other. We both worked to make you and we both really wanted you.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
6 Weeks
I am feeling scared and so happy; I can’t wait for my 8 week check up so that I can be sure everything is ok and I might get a glimpse of you.
I know things are going to be hard for the first couple of years because the whole truth is not being told to Heathers family (your Father’s wife, and your Mother/Aunt). They are not going to know that Rob is your Father because Heather does not think they can handle it right now. This is not going to be true forever, eventually they will have to know I don’t want to lie to them with you in the room since it would hurt you. Rob is your Father and he always will be never doubt that.
Last night I had such a hard time sleeping because I was so hot, all I could think all night was that my body had to be working very hard to grow you. Right now you are growing in my belly, getting bigger and stronger every moment.
I think you are going to be a boy I have no idea if I am right or not but I feel like it’s true. If you turn out to be a little girl instead I will still be so happy. Someday I want to have a boy and a girl, bother and sister, son and daughter, it will be so wonderful to meet you both. The book says your heart is beating now to low for me to hear but I know it’s going a mile a minute, I can’t wait to see and feel you.
Doctor Appointment
Weight:288
09/23/2009
Not feeling well because of migraines went to doctor and got some medicine to help me if need be. Also got a cute pregnancy kit, with baby book, guidelines and coupons.
I know things are going to be hard for the first couple of years because the whole truth is not being told to Heathers family (your Father’s wife, and your Mother/Aunt). They are not going to know that Rob is your Father because Heather does not think they can handle it right now. This is not going to be true forever, eventually they will have to know I don’t want to lie to them with you in the room since it would hurt you. Rob is your Father and he always will be never doubt that.
Last night I had such a hard time sleeping because I was so hot, all I could think all night was that my body had to be working very hard to grow you. Right now you are growing in my belly, getting bigger and stronger every moment.
I think you are going to be a boy I have no idea if I am right or not but I feel like it’s true. If you turn out to be a little girl instead I will still be so happy. Someday I want to have a boy and a girl, bother and sister, son and daughter, it will be so wonderful to meet you both. The book says your heart is beating now to low for me to hear but I know it’s going a mile a minute, I can’t wait to see and feel you.
Doctor Appointment
Weight:288
09/23/2009
Not feeling well because of migraines went to doctor and got some medicine to help me if need be. Also got a cute pregnancy kit, with baby book, guidelines and coupons.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
5 Weeks
On September 12th I found out that I was pregnant with you. I was so surprised, and shocked. Late Saturday night I took the first home test it had two lines one was very faint I was not sure if it was right I had never seen two lines before but it was so faint. Sunday morning I took another same thing, two lines one very faint. I could not stand not knowing for sure so I went and bought another test that gives the result as Pregnant or Not Pregnant. Took that one as well and it said Pregnant, my heart skipped. I had never been so happy to see a word, such a simple word but such a big one as well. I danced around in the Wegman’s bathroom where I had taken the test because I could not wait to get home to take it.
I have never been happier in my life; I have wanted you for so long. On Monday I went to the doctor and got the official test done and it came back positive as well. I am now 5 weeks pregnant, basically just at the beginning. I can’t fell, see, or hear you but I know you are there just growing. It is so important to me that you are ok and that I will be a good mom to you. I am going to keep this journal of when I am pregnant for you so you can know how I feel and how much I want you.
I love you my baby, I can’t wait till the day we can meet eye to eye.
Doctor appointment
Weight:284
Positive Preganancy Test
Possible Due Date 05/18/2009
Set up appointment for 8 week exam on 08/05/2009 at 9:00am.
09/18/2009
On Friday I had a real scare, I was at work and I noticed I was having a hard time focusing with my right eye. Then my right hand started to go numb like it had fallen asleep and then my lips and tongue on my right side went numb as well. I sent Rob a text to come get me then called my doctor to see what I should do; they referred me to the hospital ER. On the way most of my symptoms had gone away but a headache. I started crying I was so scared I had never had anything like this happen before and I was worried about you. Your father told me he loved me and that I would be ok, he joked with me and made me smile. We got to the ER and they were nice and fast they got me into a room and into a gown. The PA came in and checked me out, she asked how far along I was and how I was feeling. The headache had gone away and all the other issues as well. After the exam and talking to me she was pretty sure that it was just a migraine exacerbated by pregnancy. She went to talk to the doctor and sent Rob in to be with me. When she came back she said that they could do a CT scan to make sure it was nothing neurological like a stroke but because of how early I am in the pregnancy it could be dangerous to you. She left Rob and I alone to talk about the risks and what we wanted to do, we decided that we would not risk it. We told the PA and she stated she was pretty sure I would be ok but the moment I started to feel that way again I should come back to the hospital.
It was a scary experience but it turned out ok, I was just so happy that you and I where both ok.
I have never been happier in my life; I have wanted you for so long. On Monday I went to the doctor and got the official test done and it came back positive as well. I am now 5 weeks pregnant, basically just at the beginning. I can’t fell, see, or hear you but I know you are there just growing. It is so important to me that you are ok and that I will be a good mom to you. I am going to keep this journal of when I am pregnant for you so you can know how I feel and how much I want you.
I love you my baby, I can’t wait till the day we can meet eye to eye.
Doctor appointment
Weight:284
Positive Preganancy Test
Possible Due Date 05/18/2009
Set up appointment for 8 week exam on 08/05/2009 at 9:00am.
09/18/2009
On Friday I had a real scare, I was at work and I noticed I was having a hard time focusing with my right eye. Then my right hand started to go numb like it had fallen asleep and then my lips and tongue on my right side went numb as well. I sent Rob a text to come get me then called my doctor to see what I should do; they referred me to the hospital ER. On the way most of my symptoms had gone away but a headache. I started crying I was so scared I had never had anything like this happen before and I was worried about you. Your father told me he loved me and that I would be ok, he joked with me and made me smile. We got to the ER and they were nice and fast they got me into a room and into a gown. The PA came in and checked me out, she asked how far along I was and how I was feeling. The headache had gone away and all the other issues as well. After the exam and talking to me she was pretty sure that it was just a migraine exacerbated by pregnancy. She went to talk to the doctor and sent Rob in to be with me. When she came back she said that they could do a CT scan to make sure it was nothing neurological like a stroke but because of how early I am in the pregnancy it could be dangerous to you. She left Rob and I alone to talk about the risks and what we wanted to do, we decided that we would not risk it. We told the PA and she stated she was pretty sure I would be ok but the moment I started to feel that way again I should come back to the hospital.
It was a scary experience but it turned out ok, I was just so happy that you and I where both ok.
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