Ellie Virginia Blair-Heim

On April 22nd at 4:15 pm I gave birth to my daughter Ellie Virginia Blair-Heim. She was 6 pounds 5 Ounces, and 20 inches long. When I did the last push they put her on my chest and I could not believe that I had done this. I had made this baby inside me and then I had given birth to her.

I have truly never been more happy in my whole life. I was in that delivery room just looking at her as they cleaned her up and got her ready for the world. Rob stayed by my side as they got me taken care of and then he went over to look at his daughter and touch her for the first time. He looked so happy, when he reached out his finger and put it in her little hand and she held it I could see tears in his eyes.

You surprised us some much Ellie, first you turned out to be a girl and we where both so scared, because all we could think of was how hard girls can be. But now you have us both so completely wrapped around your little finger. Next your due date was supposed to be May 17th but because of some possible medical issues the doctor told me that she wanted to admit me into the hospital to observe me. After some testing she decided it would be best to induce me, this was at 9 pm April 21st. So induce me they did at 10 pm with some cervidil to soften my cervix. At 9 am they checked me and I was 2 centimeters and I was starting to have light contractions they started a pitocin drip. Your dad came to the hospital from home having slept there for the night and he helped me stay calm and breath through the contractions, your grandma was also there to help as well. At around 2 they checked me again and I was 7 centimeters, they broke my water and the contractions really started to get bad. I tried to get a epidural but it did not work and only one side of me got numb. Within half an hour of getting the epidural they checked me again and I was 9 centimeters and completely effaced. They called the doctor and around 4 I started pushing, the doctor showed up a few minutes later and everyone started rushing around because they could already see your head. With only a few pushes you where out and looking beautiful.

I am so proud of what I did and how well you worked with me to come out. When I have another baby I don't think I will bother with the epidural, it did not really work for me and really only caused me trouble.

You are now a little over 2 weeks old and you are sleeping next to me in your little baby bed. I am so nervous and happy, but I can not wait to watch you grow and change. Right now you have brown hair and baby blue eyes. I know the eyes will change and everyone says most likely the hair will change color as well so I can't wait to see what your final coloration will be.

I love you baby girl never doubt that, so does your father with all of his heart we will always be here for you.

May 7th 2010
Ped appointment
6 pounds 14 ounces
Everything looks healthy, good size and good reflexes. Next appointment June the 9th, you will get your first shots, sorry baby.

12 weeks

I got to hear your heartbeat for the first time, it was so small and so fast. I could barely hear it but it was there. I cried the moment I heard the first beat, it was amazing. Your dad was there he was very happy to hear you, its nice to have something to show that your real. I'm almost two thirds of the way thru my pregnancy and it's scary and so exciting.

So much is going on in my head and I wish it was easier to sort out but of all of it you are my constant. I always want you and think about you, your my dream. I know
you will make your own life, go your own way but just being able to bring you into existence gives me so much joy and to know that you are a part of me and your father is so important.

Doctor appointment
11/02/2009
Weight:282
Normal checkup
Got to hear heartbeat first time

10 and 11 weeks

Not to much happened in these weeks, you are still to small to feel or hear yet but I put my hands on my abdomen and dream about you all the time.

Your father told his sister about you and me, things went well she was very understanding and nice. She hugged me, I was not expecting it. It felt good, I was very happy.

9 Weeks

Nothing much new to report you are supposed to be the size of a cherry thought. Just want to feel you now, know that you are there. Things with your dad are getting better, he has some up days and some down days. This weekend he is going to be telling his family that he has been dating me and that I am having his baby. I really hope that goes well, I want them to be a part of your life.

Your a wonder and I can't wait to get to know you my little love.

10/18/2009

Your daddy did not get to tell his family today to much was going on at his sisters wedding, but he has made plans for the future to talk to them. Sometime in the next week or so.

Oh baby I love you so much right now, I look at your father and I picture you and how you will look like him. Will you have his small cute ears or his small happy smirk, or maybe you will have his high arches and when your a little boy you will curl your feet on the floor like he does. SO much of your daddy I want to see in you, I love you baby.

8 weeks

I had my first prenatal appointment this week, everything went well the doctor says my uterus is about the right size for how pregnant I am. I did not get to hear your heartbeat yet because it is still to early have to wait until the 12th week.

Your dad is going through some hard times this week, he has finally realized that he is having a baby and it's scary. He also has some other things going on that are really stressing him out but he is excited about you.

I just can't wait to have something that shows me for sure that you are there, anything. I know it takes time and right now you are working hard on getting made but I wish I had some sign. I think hearing your heartbeat will be the kicker for me.

I love you little baby work hard and I promise I will do my best to make sure that you come out healthy and strong.

10/05/2009
Doctor Appointment: First Prenatal
Weight:286
Check Uterus Size just starting to grow.
Did blood work and checks for diseases, and normal exams for first prenatal visit.
Tiffany came with me, she was wonderful.

7 Weeks

Just starting to feel the nausea so yucky, hate it. Still thinking about you all the time, how small you are right now and how big you will get. One day I know you are going to be taller then me, I will hug you and have to stand on my tip toes to get my arms around your neck. I daydream about you too, what you will smell like, how soft you will be, the sound of your breathing. Oh I can't wait till you can hear my voice, I will talk to you all the time I will even get your daddy to talk to you too.

I think about him a lot to and how important he is to me and you. He gave me you, it is one of the best gifts he will ever give me. I hope that we can be a gift to him too, I know he is scared right now and that this all does not seem real but soon enough it will be more real then even I can believe. On the 8th I am going to get to hear your heartbeat, your dad can't be there but he will be for all the rest. I want to see him excited really excited and awed that this is his child and that he helped make something that will live on past him. I love your father so much, more then I have ever loved anyone else I hope you two always love each other. We both worked to make you and we both really wanted you.

6 Weeks

I am feeling scared and so happy; I can’t wait for my 8 week check up so that I can be sure everything is ok and I might get a glimpse of you.

I know things are going to be hard for the first couple of years because the whole truth is not being told to Heathers family (your Father’s wife, and your Mother/Aunt). They are not going to know that Rob is your Father because Heather does not think they can handle it right now. This is not going to be true forever, eventually they will have to know I don’t want to lie to them with you in the room since it would hurt you. Rob is your Father and he always will be never doubt that.

Last night I had such a hard time sleeping because I was so hot, all I could think all night was that my body had to be working very hard to grow you. Right now you are growing in my belly, getting bigger and stronger every moment.

I think you are going to be a boy I have no idea if I am right or not but I feel like it’s true. If you turn out to be a little girl instead I will still be so happy. Someday I want to have a boy and a girl, bother and sister, son and daughter, it will be so wonderful to meet you both. The book says your heart is beating now to low for me to hear but I know it’s going a mile a minute, I can’t wait to see and feel you.


Doctor Appointment
Weight:288
09/23/2009
Not feeling well because of migraines went to doctor and got some medicine to help me if need be. Also got a cute pregnancy kit, with baby book, guidelines and coupons.